Prayers sent from Kansas.

I have been in your place mentally, please get help and get the surgery, think of your family and friends, and you don’t want to end up in hades.

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It's a hard road to be on but if you just reach out to the people Mark has provided it will help I know I've been in that place. I know you're praying and this may be where God moves it was for me in a big way so I pray God opens the door of blessings and grace over you.

Glad you reached out Foxkidd44. Definitely heed Mark's advice with available professional health. There are amazing people and resources that can come together and see you through this tough time. Be strong buddy!

Chris

Praying for you

Let God help you and share your burden. You are not alone.

I have experienced deep dark depression before, even thought about suicide. I went to a Christian psychologist that was recommended to me by Focus On The Family. I began taking antidepressants and this medicine helped me to deal with everything going on in my life. We are praying for you buddy and please find a Christian professional to talk to. God be with you!

Praying the Holy spirit will envelope you now in Jesus Name!

Listen to the words!

Sounds like you more than qualify for help. Get it done, the sooner the better. Tell the people that handle medicaid its an emergency. Pay the hospital 20-50.00 bucks a month til it kicks in? It takes 6 months to a year to heal, and is painful at first, so start soon and get it over with.

Your physical pain has connected to your mental state and is now causing you mental anguish and pain combined.

Much like going to the doctor for you physical pain when it is unbearable, PLEASE I BEG YOU it is now time to go to seek emergency mental health help also.

Do not consider yourself weak or less of a man for seeking this help. Quite the opposite. Consider yourself a loving man for seeking this help because you love your family. They love you too. If any of your family members were in this pain I know you would give a leg to take their pain away.

Make sure your medical doctor knows where you are now mentally also. This will help in expediting your help both physically and mentally.

You are not weak. You are in pain. Humble yourself and submit. DO NOT tough it out!!! You are having the mental equivalent of a heart attack. There are professionals that deal with this everyday and know what to do for you. Please go NOW!!

Hang tough Bud. Prayers sent.

I have been in your shoes for many a year. I am fused from C3-T2 and from L2-S2. I have fought this mess for a long time. You certainly qualify and medicaid will pay for this procedure. 22 surgeries since 2007.

It is tough and I know about the hopeless feelings. We, here on TMan will be your family if you dont have anyone. We are a strong, determined and compassionate compilation of like minded folks. In my darkest times between surgeries my 85 year old mother would keep telling me that this too shall pass. It has each and every time. Send me a PM with your address and I will have a TruPulse Tinge unit mailed directly to you. This little rascall will darn sure help you until you can have the surgery. Dont give up! This will be corrected and you will be able to move on with your life. In time you will look back on this journey and difficult time, knowing you overcame the darkest hour. Then you can help others walk through this same valley. Stay the course and know we are here for you.

If you have not yet called the suicide prevention line or someone else that you know and can talk to about how you feel about living do it immediately as 160 user has advised Do not even consider how much your medical bills will be to get you back on your feet All of that is secondary to you be able to deal with you working through your mental state of mind .I have some serious health issues also .And I live some of what you are dealing with every day as far as the pain and the monetary problems that come with your situation .And I also get what you are saying about not sleeping It all snowballs together and it is hard to be where you are right now . One of the most important things is to get some restful sleep .Your body and mind need some time to relax and rest each day Not sleeping just makes all the other problems that much worse .Admitting you need help is not a sign of weakness We all need help to get through life sometimes You have a daughter that I am sure loves you and wants you to be a part of her life for a long time yet .Life can be very tough at times And the health issues can knock you done before you even realize that it is happening . Look how many people have responded to your post .Many of us barely know you but we all care and want you to get better I will say a prayer for you

I’m praying with you, Foxkidd!

Prayer sent foxxkidd. Hang in there.

Never surrender....every breath you take is a gift to be cherished.