Disclaimer:
I'm not crazy,at least I don't think so.
This is nothing new, I have been dealing with it for years. Every November, probably because I am alone a lot in my tree stand. I can't help but drift back to 30-40+ years ago and think about all the changes. Mom,Dad, Grandparents and ALL of my aunts and uncles are gone. I have a wife of nearly 30 years that I thank God for every day, along with 3 beautiful daughters. My middle is already out of the house, oldest is moving out next month. Oldest graduates college in 2 weeks and already has a teaching job. Middle graduates college in a year, youngest is a highschool sophomore. While I'm absolutely overjoyed with their success I will/do miss them being in the house. The cold mornings and sunny afternoons make me miss my Dad terribly. I guess most people probably go through the same thing as I am, it's just part of life. With all that being said, I will say my faith in the Lord has and will always be what keeps me going.
Remember this around the holidays and spend as much time as possible with the ones you love.

You’re not crazy. I often have days when I pre-grieve the people I love and I have to shake myself out of it. Like what am I gonna do without my mom or my aunt or so on….
We are supposed to be happy and enjoy life and we all fear death and loss so much that sometimes it ruins the good days we have.
I wish I could keep my emotions more in check. Sounds like you value life and love and that makes you a heck of a good man in my book.

Thank you, that truly means a lot.

Lost my uncle in August he was 79. My thoughts in the last few months have been the same as mentioned above concerning parents and aunts and uncles. They are all in their 80s thankful and blessed to have them in my life this long. Non of us are guaranteed tomorrow.

every now and then in October and May I get to thinking about my son that was killed in a wreck at 16 months old back in 07. October 16th the day of the wreck and May 13 his birthday. For a month before I used to get very grouchy and fast to get aggressive. That is until it clicked and I realized it was happening and why Family functions uses to be hard on both sides there are boys born within 6 weeks of Levi and looking at them and thinking about how my son would have grown was tough. . Often I miss speaking with my grandfather on my dad's side. I think about him a lot when I'm in my old loggy deer stand he and my dad got me for x Mas when I was 14.

Nothing wrong with rembering just cant let the loss get you down and affect your life.

I understand your thoughts. Believe it or not, you will probably be over run with grand kids in a few short years. Life will work out just fine. Be patient young man.

Thank you all so much for the responses, you just gotta keep on keeping on...

You're not crazy.

Mom always asked 'how do crazy people have enough sense to know they are crazy' so there's that, lol. But agree with you it's normal for us all to think back of family gathered around in the house at the holidays telling stories and laughing, i was the youngest of the bunch so they have all moved on now and somehow we have become the 'old' people in the picture.

I do a lot of reminiscing when on stand. I almost always think of my dad among others. Probably because I'm usually hunting with his favorite rifle.

I've noticed the last few years that October seems to be kinda hard to get through, but at least now I can sense it coming so I can prepare myself.

If you’re going to reminisce, think back to the good, smile to the sky, and be thankful you have had all those great times.

Most of all think of the now. All those past people and memories have made you what you are …. And what you are is something very special to those three daughters, your lovely wife, and I’m betting more others than you realize.
A little melancholy is good for the soul. A LITTLE melancholy.
You’re not alone.

Osky

Changes always happenPeople and things change.No matter how we want things to stay the same it won't and can't happen.All you can do is try to adjust the best you can.

That is very well said, Osky.

Everyone I hunted with has passed; mom, dad, grandma, grandpa, great grandpa, 2 uncles, 3 cousins and 2 close friends. I'm the last. I do still have my wonderful wife of 37 years. She gets on me a lot but she's all I got left so I smile and move on, after she's outta site!

These are amazing responses and I greatly appreciate each and every one of them, thank you all so much.

I was driving down outta the mountains today after a few days of hunting....thinking of how short life is

Wishing I could stop by a buddies house to chin wag a bit ....he's gone though

Thinking about my dad and his life .....gone early this year ....

An uncle who's on his way out .....gotta get back down to Nevada.....man I've burned that highway up over the years.....

Life is short .....

AND trough in the Mrs .....

The Mrs is short too ..lol

Dad turned 78 yesterday

I often find myself wondering how many more years we can hunt and get out together.
I think it is part of getting older, when you are young you think you will live forever, at some point you realize you won't and finally that you yourself are running short on time left in this life.

I also wonder about the friends and family I lost too early and what they would be doing and/or what we would have done if they were still living