Kristen,
As we know, we can only do so much ourselves and then in our time of trials, often called suffering, we find answers to questions we wouldn't have ever asked... if not for the trials.
That scenario is beyond us, but not beyond the One who made you.
May the peace of God, shalom, come upon you, now as it has in the past (at times), giving you rich moments of reflection on those things that really matter and those things that really don't, so that you're able to rest a while and put things in proper perspective.

Our prayers will aim this way.

Blessings from Mark and Donna!