I've had dogs all my life, but never a relationship like this one. A good friend stated it best " Every great dog owner has that one dog that owns you and it's a bond that you will probably never experience again"
Ruger is coming up on his 13th birthday and it just makes me intensely mad that his health is failing. Way too short of a time together. Now its evaluating his situation, caring for him, and trying to repay him for what he's done for me.
Since a pup, his natural instinct is indescribable. No formal training for hunting, he just was born to do it perfectly. But his instincts and knowledge of us is what is so different. He knows when I've had a bad day. He didn't great me with a ball to play fetch, rather he would just crawl up on me and lay his head across my shoulder and wouldn't move. I blew my knees out in high school and deal with chronic pain. Somehow he just knows the days I'm hurting and he becomes the 110# heating pad. Whether it was just laying his head across my knees, crawling up on the bed and laying over my legs. Knows when I need a laugh and instantly becomes the family clown.
Don't believe in spirits - explain this. Two nights before my mother passed, I woke up to Ruger whining and my Mother talking to someone. Came down the hallway (Mom was in a hospital bed in the living room) and Ruger's hair all stood up like plugged into an electrical socket and he wouldn't go into the living room. He stood at the end of the hallway and stared at an empty rocking chair diagonally across the room as my mother carried out a conversation. Mom's last words in that conversation was "Ok, I love you and will be there soon" I asked her who she was talking to and she said "My Dad, don't you see him sitting there" She looked back at the chair and said oh, Dad left as Ruger let his hair down and went over and smelled the chair. He had a very confused posture as he circled the room and kept going back to the rocking chair and smelling it.
Nearly 13 years of extraordinary experiences with him. Way too many to try to list. Never imagined a relationship with a dog where we communicate with eye contact, body language, and just knowing what each other is thinking. But he's my best friend, family guardian, and that list just goes on and on.
For the past six-seven months, he's had episodes of mini-strokes about 1-2 months apart. Just stops dead in his tracks, shakes a little, becomes wobbly, disorientated, vomits, then lethargic for a day or two. Since Christmas, this is becoming more frequent (almost weekly) and I'm realizing just how limited on time we are. The last 24 hours has been laying on the floor with him, cleaning vomit, or him laying across my feet. If I leave the room he immediately begins to whimper. It's not right that good animals live such a short life span and POS humans can live so dang long. Yep, I said it. I value my dog over many people. Well, back to giving this guy a hug
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